There was a girl in my treatment waiting office rocking her bald head. I observed cautiously as to not stare.
She was beautiful. Her significant other by her side. She looked incredible despite the fact that she was dealing with cancer treatments and all the ugly side effects
We were two ships passing. Me leaving, her entering. I knew I would write about her as I secretly sent her well wishes.
I wondered if I would ever rock a bald head. I told myself, NO, but who knew what the future held.
I continue to lose my hair. There is not much left of my curly locks. I had this bright idea to color what was left of my hair, a cool shade of auburn. Mainly to cover my gray roots.
I made the mistake of not combing the dye through and it matted. It was so bad I had to cut two huge tangled clumps of what was left of my lovely locks. It was a somber moment.
I have come to accept my hair loss. It's only hair. My hair is not who I am. My hair is only a small part of me.
I did prepare and purchased a few wigs way before I needed them. One fun loving maroon with deep hues of violet. I love it and rock it when the mood moves me.
I also bought long brown flowy locks. This is some sexy hair. I have embraced the warmed it exudes. It's hard not to love a women with long brown flowing hair. It looks the most natural with my skin tone.
I have a blond wig as well. It is shorter and adorable. It amazes me the second looks a gal gets with a blond head of hair. Really not what I'd expect, but it's interesting to watch when I'm paying attention.
I have learned regardless if I throw on a hat or a wig or just go au natural and pull what's left of my hair in an Itty bitty pony tail, it's still me, but it's a different me. It's whoever I want to be.
I can be fun, free loving, serious or chill. I can morph into any version of myself. My image is completely up to me.
My next step is to cut my hair short, touch up my gray and go full on Pink style. Why? Because I have never done it and why the heck not? I think I like the versatility of trying new looks more now than I would if I didn't have cancer.
If anyone needs to deal with chemo, they may as well make the experience something exciting. Make it better then anyone would expect.
I love all my looks and have seriously considered keeping all of them even when my hair is back to normal.
Whatever that is.
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